Since embarking on my new chapter of life I have begun to dream big. I have begun to develop a new way of looking at the world which is opening up the door of every opportunity, filling my life with such optimism in the face of endless possibility. I look back at my last marriage and it is only through tasting freedom, do I realise the restricted position I had allowed myself to be caged into. In fact I feel claustrophobic when I think of how things were. I didn’t bother to have dreams because I knew that I would never be able to pursue them and so I forsook almost every God-given talent of mine and resigned myself to the way of life that I had been living. Everything that I was good at was frowned upon and I was made to feel fearful of stepping outside of the box because of what might happen and what had happened to someone else. I simply lived my life in a robotic way, and that is the most accurate term I can use to I describe it. My mother was not much of a dreamer and I am actually thankful for that, because through this I learned how to be content with the current situation, a practice that helps to keep oneself grounded and appreciative of the countless blessings around us. My father was the dreamer and so it provided a balance, however, dreams cannot come into fruition without some sort of action. It was after a major turning point in my life which ignited the fire within me for change, and I began to dream myself up a new life and a new future. I started dreaming of something better. I envisioned myself in the future as a fearless woman engaging herself in amazing experiences, helping others and helping herself. I no longer had these short-term limited goals. I removed the limit from myself and allowed myself to dream of being in a position and achieving feats that I had never ever imagined. And why shouldn’t I? The world is filled with people who are doing incredible things and they are doing so because they started with a dream. They dreamed of doing something amazing and then they had the self-belief to put their ideas into action. I have begun to see the world as a place full of opportunity, but you have to have your eyes open to see it. Before I decided that I wanted change, there were countless life changing moments and opportunities missed because my heart and my eyes were closed to them. Even if I recognised an opportunity I would have dismissed it because number one; I didn’t have the self worth to see myself in it, and number two; I was confining myself to the life I was in because I wasn’t perceiving a better one. Since I decided that I was in fact worth it, I am beginning to recognise those life-changing moments and once-in-a-lifetime-opportunities and they are no longer passing me by. I am grabbing them with both hands and saying ‘This belongs to me, and thank you very much!’ Since I began to see myself with an incredible future, I have started to realise the steps I need to take in order to get there and pathways have been opening up before me and I am no longer afraid of walking them. I don’t know if I will ever achieve my goal and I have no idea of where I am destined to be, but that is where contentment and appreciation for the current moment comes into play. It prevents that feeling of ingratitude and feeling as though what we have and what we are is not enough. So I will take gratitude in one hand and striving optimistically in the other as I move forward in my journey. I am uncertain of whether I will achieve my goal but I am having a wonderful time learning, changing and becoming the woman that I am along the way.
They say the sky is the limit, I say; why stop there?